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Tomorrow is a personal holiday, Remember-Your-Friends-Day.

It's unusual for me to stay friends with people I've stopped spending time with. I've got this vague notion that there's something shallow about that... as if we are only friends out of convenience.

But really, I think that it's okay.

Tomorrow, take a moment to remember your friends past and present. Surround yourself with the best friends you can find.

I'm leaving tomorrow morning and wont be back to Watertown till the 9th.

This is unreasonably special that I get to go to japan!!

I'll take pictures but not too many.

I'll miss everyone from boston, cambridge, and watertown. 

I hate bragging and that's what this whole grad school application thing feels like. I'd rather just be honest about things. At least it's not as bad as applying for regular jobs. And it's so close to being totally finished... for this year anyway.

It's only poisoning my brain because I cant quite figure the antidote out. I swear I'm getting closer though.

While my LJ post count is no longer round, it's now a palindrome!! score!

It's one of our most difficult obstacles.
Don't be a hero.
Don't try to be stronger than anyone else.
Don't look at Vash the Stampede and say "I should be like that"
Because the hero needs to be unique enough to convince himself (or herself, but I suspect it's less common) that no one Understands them.
"I'm this lone figure on my fucking mountain peak, BITCH. You may wonder what it's like up here and let me tell you: it's COLD, you can maybe come partway up here but this highest peak is for me to stand alone."

And You DO have your peak, and you are unique but unless you share it with your friends, Your just another lonely fucker on a Mountaintop.  Artists and musicians especially.  we think we are just soo fucking special on our cold and lonely cliffs.

FUCK that! Friends, FIGHT against this with me. It sounds hard and is harder!!  If you are not a fighter, then just take me to your peak. If you don't want me on your peak, take someone else, it comes to the same thing.

For
My troubles lie not with fighting living stones,
I keep them in my home,
My friends and ego by my side, argue amongst each other,
When we are alone.

I was in a grocery store a month ago and I remember this rather plump middle aged woman talking to her partner... They were standing at the checkout register. The woman said matter-of-factly " Oh, I wanted to get some spreading cheese.... I've got these crackers at home, and I need something to eat them with"

It sounded clear to me that she just liked cheese and crackers. But with her guy/husband/BF there she found some practical and rational reason.

I'm not sure exactly why, but I find something about that 'icky'. It's pretty irrelevant to my life, when a couple in a store does it, but I just noticed myself doing it too. I wanted something because it would be fun and interesting, and when I was explaining this to someone else I was all like 'well here are the practical reasons why this is good for me.'  Eeeugh! Gross.

Sometimes It's a two sided thing though... I can imagine that if that guy in the grocery store heard his wife saying that she wanted something like that explaining all the reasons why that desire was not logical... "those are bad for you, expensive, etc". Why should anyone have to defend their desires rationally? 

I've seen this come up between couples a lot. It usually seems to be the male party essentially accusing 'Look here are the ways that you are acting/feeling irrational, what's wrong with you??'


Weird, des ne??

I've bought maybe four or five domain names in the past mostly from different vendors, and I was never very satisfied with the service(maybe because I always went for the cheapest option). Do any Internet savvy here experienced in the matter have any advice?
 
I don't remember the ones I've had in the past. But I remember liking yahoo Domains better than godaddy. I don't remember why.

More Importantly, I need to get hosting too. I don't need a lot of bandwidth, maybe < 1GB/month but with the option to upgrade. I remember that searching through forums  etc to find reviews was a waste of time.

thanks, I welcome any advice.

integral, life with respect to love
over memories through dreams.
I'll meet you somewhere inbetween.

I'm out of school and living in Framingham for the summer.   I had a good year at school. The sound recording program at UML is the first place I have been where I've really gotten something significant back for working hard. I mean with classes that I have taken other places, I've learned a lot, but that happens slowly and its sometimes not very noticable. Here I can tell that I'm learning fun interesting things, many of which have actually been useful for doing things that I want to do. especially stuff relating to audio. I think that real jobs that actually pay money are opening up to me but its hard to tell.

This summer, I'm doing some work with a Grammy winning classical producer. I think that he is in the process of sort of checking me out to see if I am a worthy investment for him to keep working with. I am going to be working on some editing projects with him, and on location recording.  he's very subtle about it, but its weird being judged in that way. So if I'm right about this then there's the possibility, that I will have a lot of really sweet interesting work through him, and the possibility that I will have a lot less somewhat interesting work.
It looks like I will also be doing some freelance recording with another local engineer. 

that work is going to be less hours for now anyway, than I was originally hoping, so It looks like I will still need to find a normal part time summer job, if I want to make any money. I think I might loan myself out to a temp agency. but if anyone has any ideas or recommendations I would appreciate them.
I have a car for the first time since the LeBaron, which will make getting a job much easier than last summer, I hope.  a 93' ford escort that cost 200$ and has working sir conditioning! a such a luxury. This also means that I can go places. sort of. when I have money for gas. which is unusual and awesome.

"The social values are right only if the individual values are right. The place to improve the world is first in one's own heart, and head and hands, and then work outward from there."
-Robert M. Pirsig, from Zen And the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance

it's pirate time.

every year when I move into a new room, I am again surrounded by new poeple. Its always difficult to be around so many strangers all at once again. Inevitably, I stop my unpacking when I get to my old svs yearbooks, and start paging through them. ther's pheobe, and matt and kyle and lexi and miri, myla, ben, ramon, the stooges, joanna, and the inevitable comment about the night on nickerson with the birthday cake (I cant count all the times that poeple wrote about that). I miss being around all those poeple who knew me so well. even the ones who I didn't get along with, when it was becuase we disliked each other, not because we had mistaken beliefs about each other. I'm tougher now, but somehow a little less comfortable, a little more prejudiced, a little quicker to jump quickly to conclusions, a little older.

god damm. I don't want to be at home tonight.

It was fun to hang out with many svsers at Peter's birthday tonight. Another social group who I for whatever reasons, I refuse to put any effort into spending time with. I have no idea why it's in my interest to do that, but I sure have done it a lot. I met a pretty cool girl at psyforia this summer, and I hung out with her and some of her friends one night in boston. It was fun. Another fantasic social group, who I will not commit to spending any time with in the future. WTF.I do usually avoid large groups in any situation. it's also something that I could pretty easily change.
School starts up in a week and a half, and I'm looking forward to it.
the other thing about svs is the statistic bendingly high amount of sexyness. yes, we fall at the far end of the bell curve. maybe thats why like everyone's fucked each other.

I think that's whats more important than what music you listen to, is how you listen to it.
You'll know what I mean if you have an album that is somehow tied to a memory or a friend or something, and when you listen to it, it brings some of those memories with it? Music is cool like that.
peace,
charles

There are two things that I've found that very religably make me happy. Love is one, be it in friends, girls, whatever. The second thing is really hard work. So with this knowledge I can pretty much be really happy the rest of my life right? Today between classes, I sat with Ben at a bar in the airport. He's off to Israel for a six months. So I might need some friends... or maybe a girl again. I spent the weekend with some neo-hippies in vermont. They is seemed like a genuinly happy bunch, not without their own problems.
Summer's busy. I get up at 5:30 bike to the train station. Commute to boston to learn some C++. Train back. bike home. sleep for a half hour. bike to work. work. bike home. home work and some messing aroung on the internet or eat dinner. sleep for around four hours. then do it all over again. daily, its about 20 miles of biking.
and work is shit. After not getting hired anywhere else, I went back to gamestop for minimum wage. F! Then in three days I got three good job offers. Everything seems good compared to gmaestop. Too bad that hapened at the end of the summer or else I could have been making money this whole time instead of barely breaking even. starting next week, I'll be getting 8.50$. woot.

8 bit music lovers... Bit Shifter and Nullsleep In alliston this wednesday. 21+ but I'm getting in anyway.
Two bloody days before my 21 birthday.
http://resist.8bitpeoples.com/

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Nullsleep performs using Game Boys and NES consoles to create conceptually unique music that blends subversive hardware hacking with powerful melodic pop. His constant push for new ways to force the most out of yesterday's machines and the unparalleled romantic chiptune intensity he brings to the stage have gained him notice everywhere from Wired to Vogue. Whether thrashing away on a keyboard hooked up to a Game Boy like an electric guitar or rocking hacked NES cartridges, Nullsleep consistently demonstrates his passion for pushing the limits of both the hardware and the heart.

a boy called memory
Reword:
rethink
revisit
revise.
Reverse Engineer:
reuseable mission statement
rhenium
two thousand six hundred Hertz.
Remember.

This can only mean it's time to start fighting again. At least I enjoy it, is a sick sort of way.

I'm back in framingham for the summer. I wanted to not come back here, but things were hectic, and and I didn't arrange anything else. now that I'm here its actually been really nice to spend time with my family, which I have not done in months.
I had an good semester, and I lived with a bunch of wonderful people whom made being in the dorms very enjoyable, if not rather dramatic. The longer I spend in lowell, the more I like it there, and I am looking forward to going back. One of the big problems out there is the girls. most of them are sorrority type girls who are neither interesting nor interested. and the guy to girl ratio is absurd. In a bad way. I've been more lucky than most, but it really leaves a lot to be desired. My mom is rooting for me though, so I've got that going for me.
I've got to find some summer work, or just some summer money anyway, preferrably a lot of it. job hunting blows. any recomendations?
yesterday was my parents 25th aniversery, and we are throwing a holbrow style party on the evening of sunday the 28th. frisbee, croquet, dancing, ping-pong. anyone reads this is welcome of course, unless you're some weirdo who I don't know, in which case why are you reading my jorunal? creep. just warn me first.
I miss SVSers, and I hope that I will get to see some of you sometime this summertime. I'm totally looking forwards to some warm summer nights, because I love those. hoefully we will get some.
I'm gonna be 21 in a few weeks which is kindof annoying, but kindof cool. meh.
I've been playing Final Fantasy VII which has been an overdue event. fuck! its totally phenomenal! I beat jenova last night, and I was all like oh my gosh that was a weirldly easy boss fight, and then sepiroth's all like " PSYCH!!! I'm toally gonna whup up on you now". I think I'm gonna have to level up a little more before I can beat him. I've been waiting to watch Advent Children, untill I beat the game, and I think I might do a birthday showing of the movie, because i'm hoping that it contains as much awesomeness as the game, but all packed into 2 hours instead of 25.

I totally have a crush on this gay girl :(